Can’t believe it’s more than a month since I’ve written my blog. Where does the time go?
Have spoken to the Community Psychiatric Nurse about the crying episodes which are getting worse. She seems to feel it is a symptom of Mum’s illness rather than straightforward depression. I agree with her really as she’s not in that state all the time, it just seems to sweep over her for no apparent reason. The Nurse also said that these symptoms often last for a while and then disappear which makes sense, as the period where she got up and dressed in the middle of the night lasted for a while then suddenly stopped. (Thank God!)
Her anxiety levels have risen lately. She seems to worry about everything – usually about imaginary problems. The main focus is the Day Centre – she imagines that nobody likes her and constantly thinks she has offended people or been treated really badly, which makes her not want to return.
She had a crying episode last night while Mark was here with me. She had a brief moment where she asked who I was, then asked if Mark and I were brother and sister. She then went down the paranoia route, saying I was lying to her and this wasn’t her home and she preferred her other home; and various ramblings that were pretty unclear but obviously upset her.
The evenings are my main problem at present. As soon as we’ve finished tea at around 6.30, Mum gets really restless. She’s up and down from her chair every ten minutes, wandering off but not knowing why or where. So it’s very difficult to do anything in the evening as I seem to spend all my time trying to settle her down. She is also finding it difficult to get ready for bed – often can’t recall how to get undressed and on occasion comes back into the lounge in a totally different set of clothes.
I have been given a Carer’s Direct Payment by Social Services to fund extra care so today we had a visit from the Care Manager of a local agency. It will be an opportunity for me to go out a little more often and leave Mum in safe hands. She will probably like to have someone else here who is prepared to offer her her full attention, something which I possibly don’t do enough!