Another two weeks have passed already. Mum seems to be declining more rapidly lately which is causing us much worry.
I contacted the GP again about the anti-depressants because Mum is still crying on and off but she reassured me that they can take ages to kick in. Meanwhile, she has prescribed Lorazapam for restless evenings. The evenings are the worst time of day (usually starting at 7.30) Mum gets up from her chair and starts to go somewhere but she doesn’t know where she wants to go. Then she sits again and starts crying. She says such heartbreaking things as “I keep thinking I’ll wake up tomorrow and everything will be back to normal”. The getting up and down cycle continues roughly every 15 minutes until she goes to bed.
I’m not altogether happy with this drug as it seems to be making mum totally incoherent in the evenings and she can barely get up off her chair. However, I will go along with it until I have to speak the GP again in a few days.
Mum has become more difficult in the night again – I knew it was only a matter of time! The problem this time is that she gets up and is disorientated. Can’t find the bathroom, then can’t find her bedroom or thinks she’s gone to the wrong bedroom. So I’m disturbed every time she gets up – 4 times last night. I daren’t take a sleeping pill or wear earplugs in case she falls.
She’s also finding it difficult to dress and undress herself properly. She will disappear into her bedroom to get ready for bed and come back out wearing a new set of clothes. She also rarely puts on matching socks even though they are put away in her drawer in pairs.
One newish symptom is that she can’t seem to understand what you say to her, even when she can hear you. It’s as though she can’t compute the sound she’s hearing together with what your lips are saying. The other day she had a fairly reasonable telephone conversation with her sister but as soon as she put down the phone and I started to talk, she just hadn’t got a clue what I was saying. Very frustrating…….for all of us.