Monthly Archives: September 2012

Time Flies

Another two weeks have passed already.  Mum seems to be declining more rapidly lately which is causing us much worry.

I contacted the GP again about the anti-depressants because Mum is still crying on and off but she reassured me that they can take ages to kick in.  Meanwhile, she has prescribed Lorazapam for restless evenings. The evenings are the worst time of day (usually starting at 7.30)  Mum gets up from her chair and starts to go somewhere but she doesn’t know where she wants to go.  Then she sits again and starts crying.  She says such heartbreaking things as “I keep thinking I’ll wake up tomorrow and everything will be back to normal”.  The getting up and down cycle continues roughly every 15 minutes until she goes to bed.

I’m not altogether happy with this drug as it seems to be making mum totally incoherent in the evenings and she can barely get up off her chair.  However, I will go along with it until I have to speak the GP again in a few days.

Mum has become more difficult in the night again – I knew it was only a matter of time!  The problem this time is that she gets up and is disorientated.  Can’t find the bathroom, then can’t find her bedroom or thinks she’s gone to the wrong bedroom.  So I’m disturbed every time she gets up – 4 times last night.  I daren’t take a sleeping pill or wear earplugs in case she falls.

She’s also finding it difficult to dress and undress herself properly.  She will disappear into her bedroom to get ready for bed and come back out wearing a new set of clothes.  She also rarely puts on matching socks even though they are put away in her drawer in pairs.

One newish symptom is that she can’t seem to understand what you say to her, even when she can hear you.  It’s as though she can’t compute the sound she’s hearing together with what your lips are saying.  The other day she had a fairly reasonable telephone conversation with her sister but as soon as she put down the phone and I started to talk, she just hadn’t got a clue what I was saying.  Very frustrating…….for all of us.


Posted by on September 20, 2012 in Diary


Worsening Symptoms

Mum’s episodes of crying have increased to such an extent that I had a telephone consultation with the GP (locum!) and she has doubled the anti-depressant dosage.  Mum has been on this new amount for a week now but to be honest I don’t think there’s any change.

She has definitely deteriorated over the past few weeks as regards her ability to perform simple tasks, particularly when she is tired or upset.  She keeps telling me the toaster has broken because she often forgets how to use it.  Similarly with making a cup-a-soup for her lunch – I once found soup actually in the kettle!   I may have mentioned how she has picked up her knife and fork to eat her dinner before it’s actually there, well the other day I heard a terrible grating noise and she was doing her best to carve through the TV table.  I wonder what it looked like to her?   She is also having alot of trouble getting undressed for bed – takes things off and back on several times – all the while getting quite bad-tempered.

She continues to hate the Day Centre and behaves like a small child who doesn’t want to go to school on the two mornings she attends.  Then when she comes home she tells me about the dreadful day she has had!

The confusion with the TV has also worsened and she frequently becomes caught up in a particular storyline, thinking she is taking part.  She has (in her mind) been back stage on Jeremy Kyle and also in the Celebrity Big Brother house recently, not to mention cooking on Come Dine with Me which is particularly distressing as she’s never been a good cook.  Unfortunately her taste in TV programmes doesn’t help!


Posted by on September 7, 2012 in Diary


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